TGIF // 07

Heyyyy everyone. It’s been a while since I’ve checked in here, didn’t mean to disappear. I have to say….pregnancy fatigue is real. I’m only about a week away from entering my 3rd trimester so the aches and pains are starting to creep in. The next three months will be interesting, haha. I’m trying to cut myself some slack and be kind to myself as my body morphs into something I don’t recognize from the neck down, but being kind to myself is really hard to do. It’s hard to not feel down or bad when I’m not as productive as I once was…or when a hike tires me out so much I feel like crying by the end of it (or maybe, if you’re pregnant too, you do cry a little because you’re hormonal and exhausted and too hot? that definitely didn’t happen to me, just hypothetical…). I’m trying to stay positive and be excited and not overly terrified about the future, but sometimes that takes more mental energy than I’d like to admit.

Anyway, I’m very grateful for this whole experience. Really. Feeling the little kicks and jabs has been pretty magical and sweet. Despite the fear…I’m really excited about, and seriously attached to, this little human already. And I’m so grateful that so far everything has been “normal” and the baby is healthy…but it’d be a lie to say it’s been a picnic. Mentally and physically it’s been tough at times. I mean, how do you mentally prepare for bringing a new human into the world? If you know, let me in on your secrets plz and thx.


Free Pattern by the lovely Juliet Meeks

This week I’m trusting that I’m right where I’m supposed to be. I’m trusting that all those emotions and thoughts I just expressed are completely normal (and I’m told they are). I’m trusting that I’ll figure things out as I go, just like everyone seems to. And I’m trusting that it’s going to be life changing and beautiful and difficult as most good things are.

Lately, I’ve been feeling grateful for daily walks, rest, and prayer. These things have kept me sane. It’s amazing what a quick walk does to clear my mind of negativity and reorient my focus on the goodness in front of me. It’s also amazing what a quick nap does for my mood (does 2 hours count as quick? no?). And of course prayer…I don’t know how people center themselves without it. I’ve found a lot of peace and comfort in saying prayers all throughout the day, and I like to try to remember to say thanks as often as I ask for help. Gratitude is so so important to how my day goes….which ties into a new art project I’m starting soon, but more on that later.

This week I’m finding a ton of interior/home design inspiration online. I hadn’t really thought about how into design/decorating I’ve gotten over the last few years – but most of my favorite blogs and TV shows are design related.

Here are some of my favorite posts from the week:
This room refresh. Love how light and airy it feels, and that she kept all her current furniture – and stayed on a budget.
This Shibori tutorial. I love the colors she mixed, I’m really wanting to give this a try.
This simple candle DIY. I used to make candles all the time in high school with my sisters. It was so fun to experiment with. Seeing these pretty jars, and being reminded of how easy it is, makes me want to pick up the hobby again. Not to mention all the pretty/quality candles these days are like $20 each. No thanks.

And last but not least, my faith update. My faith and my relationship with God are things I’m always working on. My spirituality is a constant learning and growing process – I guess like any good relationship usually is and should be. It shouldn’t be stagnant, and you never really reach a point where you have it all figured out…it’s often 2 steps forward, 1 step back…or 5 steps back. And that’s ok. I’d like to devote more time to prayer, reflection, and being quiet/still. Some days I feel disconnected and wonder why, but then I realize I haven’t even given 5 minutes thought to my spiritual life…and yet I’ve spent countless hours online or looking at my phone or complaining to Brent about something or worrying about something I can’t control, etc. etc. So anyway – those are just some rambly thoughts about my faith this week. I’m so thankful to have a spiritual life again, and I can’t believe I neglected it for so long. I’m enjoying and looking forward to the continued journey – and getting closer to God through each step. (Insert footprints poem, lolz).

I hope you all have a beautiful weekend. Thanks for being here. Xo.

-Marci

TGIF // 02

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last week i mentioned starting a new series titled TGIF. You can read more about what this is and why i’m doing it here. but essentially, each week i’ll be writing about four things: trust, gratitude, inspiration, and faith. i’ll recap how each of those words/practices has come into play over the last 7 or so days.

so without further ado…

this week i’m trusting that things will work out in their own time. brent (my husband) and i are waiting on a few big life changes to take shape at the moment…and every time we think we’re about to get an answer…it’s really just a postponement. but all the changes are great and beautiful things and i’m trusting that everything will fall into place when it’s supposed to.

this week i’m feeling so so so grateful to have a husband who takes care of the less-than-glamorous household tasks. such as…killing the freaking gigantic texas bugs that have been finding their way into our cabin lately. we live in the woods. and it’s been raining a lot more than usual. and in texas, no matter how clean your house is, you will probably have cockroaches. and we’ve had so many and i want to die. BUT i haven’t had to kill a single one because i have someone who does it for me. sorry, it’s a really gross thing to be grateful for but i had such an overwhelming feeling of gratitude as i watched my handsome roach hunter go to town last night on our behalf. yeah. moving on.

this week i’m finding inspiration from so many artists on instagram:

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^^ beautiful ceramics by willowvane ^^

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^^ amazing floral design/art by flora.forager ^^

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^^ colorful, fun, and cozy interiors by thejungalow ^^

faith. this week i’ve been thinking a lot about slowing down and paying attention. we have the tv on at home more than i’d like to admit, my phone is basically a part of my body, and anytime a slight feeling of boredom looms i resolve it by looking at a screen. yuck. i mean…i do read a lot, and draw…so i’m probably making it sound worse than it is. but still, we can probably all relate to the feeling when hours disappear with nothing to show for them. so i want to start being more present..when i’m with people, when i’m outside, etc. i think the screens serve as distractions from more meaningful moments, and i’m on the hunt for those. i have faith that they’ll appear.

the top image is a little sketch i did today while laying in the hammock. you would think now that it’s september the weather would be pretty pleasant…but it’s still in the “feels like” 100 degrees season in tx. looking forward to cooler temperatures and more time outside.

i hope you are all having a great holiday weekend! it’s crazy how much of a difference one extra day makes, right?!

xo,

marci

TGIF // 01


happy friday, friends! it’s been awhile since i last wrote here…and not for lack of things to say, but lack of energy to put my rambling thoughts in to comprehensible words and sentences. sometimes i just feel like keeping my swirling thoughts in my head, and sometimes i’m just plain lazy…BUT it always feels good to check in here and get some things down on “paper.”

i started reading the gifts of imperfection by brene brown recently, and it’s so good! i recommend it to anyone who enjoys self-reflection and wants to live a more wholehearted life. in one of the chapters she talks about doing a gratitude exercise every week that she calls TGIF, hence the title of this post. every week she writes down what she’s Trusting, what she’s Grateful for, what Inspires her, and how she’s practicing her Faith. i love this so much that i’m going to copy her and start doing my own TGIF post each friday. so here goes…

this week i’m trusting that real change takes time. i’ve had a lot of ideas and fantasies about how i want my life to look, and every time i stumble or fall short i feel disappointed. but i’m trying and (slowly) learning to extend grace to myself, and trust that progress is more important than perfection.

lately i’m feeling grateful for my free time. i work a 9-5 and often resent the lack of flexibility…but i dont have children yet, and i have every weekend off work, and i get to spend all my free time reading, writing, and creating (or binge-watching netflix with my husband). and i’m so so thankful for that privilege.

this week i’m feeling inspired by all the books and podcasts i’ve been devouring. i’m always on the look-out for new and inspiring things so if you have any suggestions send them my way!
books: present over perfect, the forest house, the wander society
podcasts: happier, the smart passive income, and this vox veniae message on contentment

this week i’m practicing faith by defining it, and getting comfortable with it. in her book, the gift of imperfection, brene brown defines faith as this:

“faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.”

She then goes on to quote the theologian Richard Rohr:

“my scientist friends have come up with things like ‘principles of uncertainty’ and dark holes. they’re willing to live inside imagined hypotheses and theories. but many religious folks insist on answers that are always true. we love closure, resolution and clarity, while thinking that we are people of ‘faith’! how strange that the very word ‘faith’ has come to mean the exact opposite.”

AMEN. i dont know everything, and i dont need to. the whole point of faith is to believe something despite not having all the answers. and i’m not going to bring other people into my joy by listing off all the “answers” that i think they should live their lives by. it’s personal. it takes time. and some things just aren’t clear. some things are – yes. but a lot of things aren’t. and that’s ok.

welp. that’s all i’ve got for you this week. i’m hoping to make this a weekly series. it’s good to meditate on these prompts and really get in touch with what i’m thinking and feeling. if you decide to do something similar let me know! i’d love to hear your thoughts. i hope you all have a beautiful weekend!

xo

marci

possession

bigbend

the things i wish for are:
a color. a forest.
the devil and ice in my mouth.
everything
that can’t be owned.
a leopard, a life, a kiss.
you
never let me down.
to know that you have wanted me too
is as good as the deed
of trust.

words: barbara kingsolver | another america p. 65
photo: iphone | big bend, tx