on birthdays

27flowers

my 27th birthday came and went last week…and i’ve been wanting to write down a few thoughts. you can see some thoughts/goals i had for my 26th year here…i managed to check off a few things on that list, but not everything, and that’s just fine with me. i think one of the best things that i’m acquiring more of every time i take a trip around the sun is letting go of perfectionism. good enough is sometimes, well, good enough.

last year i wanted to paint 26 paintings using only gold and turquoise paint. i got through 19…and then got kind of bored and never finished. but you know what? i went on to paint, draw, and create more in the last year than i have in the last five years. so to me, that means success. the whole point of the project was to get me inspired again – and it worked. i recently just started a new instagram account that i’m using solely for blog and art purposes (see here: marci.eliza) and so far it’s been really fun. i’m not so concerned with things looking perfect, i’m just enjoying the process.

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so looking forward, here are some goals and thoughts i have for the coming year.

  1. learn to enjoy cooking: i rarely cook, and i’ve never really enjoyed it that much. mostly because i’m kind of impatient, and waiting an hour for something to be ready when i’m already hungry is torture. but…i’d really like to change all that. plan out new meals, start cooking before i get too hungry/crabby, and try to enjoy the motions. put on a podcast or new album…drink a glass of wine…hang out in the kitchen by myself and make something awesome for my family. i’m also pretty certain that if i stop eating out as much as i do i’ll probably lose 15 pounds without even trying and save a ton of money. the food in austin is a little too good..
  2. let it go: we all have things we need to let go of, right? this year i want to focus on letting go of insecurities, comparisons, and perfectionism. it’s such a weird ego-driven thing to constantly be comparing yourself to others, and it’s such a huge waste of time. we all know this and we all do it anyway…this year i want to spend time meditating and praying about it. i want to want the best for people, i want to genuinely feel happy for other’s good fortune. i’m committed to getting there, and i already feel like i’m on my way to that. each year my confidence grows and it get’s a little easier.
  3. start an etsy shop: i already mentioned that i’m working more on art lately. i’d love to open an etsy shop and sell originals and prints. even if i only sell a few here and there, i think it would be a great way to motivate myself to maintain a creative lifestyle…and it’d be fun to have a little extra cash too. we’ll see..

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so that’s what i have in mind for the next year. it’s always fun to feel like you get a fresh start on your birthday..i’m a total nerd about new year’s resolutions and setting goals. sticking to them is another thing, but it’s fun to dream and plan. i have about a million other things that i could add to this list…but i’m trying to keep things simple. you can’t get anything done if you send your energy in a million different directions….i’ve always wanted to do too much, and at some point i realized this was causing me to do nothing. oddly, sometimes putting limitations on yourself can be the most liberating and motivating thing. so i’ll stick to just 3 things this year…wish me luck.

book report // 08

the books i read last month were ahhmazing. i loved all three.

kate's place

i’m not sure if they just came to me at the right time, or if they really are completely profound and beautiful and can stand on their own regardless of where you are in life. i don’t want to write a review for each, because i’m not really sure how to summarize them. anything i can think to write seems like it would be insufficient in expressing my feelings about them. you know how when you find something beautiful, but you try to explain it to someone else and the beauty is just totally lost? yeah, that’s what i think would happen.

so i’ll do something different this time around.

gilead

“I wish I could leave you certain of the images in my mind, because they are so beautiful that I hate to think they will be extinguished when I am. Well, but again, this life has its own mortal loveliness. And memory is not strictly mortal in its nature, either. It is a strange thing, after all, to be able to return to a moment, when it can hardly be said to have any reality at all, even in its passing. A moment is such a slight thing. I mean, that its abiding is a most gracious reprieve.”

history of love

“Even now, all possible feelings do not yet exist, there are still those that lie beyond our capacity and our imagination. From time to time, when a piece of music no one has ever written or a painting no one has ever painted, or something else impossible to predict, fathom or yet describe takes place, a new feeling enters the world. And then, for the millionth time in the history of feeling, the heart surges and absorbs the impact.”

the dirty life

“I was forced to confront my own prejudice. I had come to the farm with the unarticulated belief that concrete things were for dumb people and abstract things were for smart people. I thought the physical world – the trades – was the place you ended up if you weren’t bright or ambitious enough to handle a white-collar job. Did I really think that a person with a genius for fixing engines, or for building, or for husbanding cows, was less brilliant than a person who writes ad copy or interprets the law? Apparently I did, though it amazes me now.”

that’s all for this month. as always, feel free to leave suggestions in the comments. as of right now, i have nothing lined up to read. halp.

you can read all previous book reports here.